Going From Loneliness to Love, It's Worth It

"When I'm afraid, I think about being lonely and what I've done wrong...But in love, all of that just seems to melt."

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Experiencing Love Ep 142

Hello, and welcome to Experiencing Love. I'm your host, Philip Joks, and I'm so glad that you're here. Today, I was trying to hone in on what the theme of the day is, to feel my daily download, so to speak. When I took a closer look at my emotions, I noticed I was feeling a bit sad. I asked myself why and realized it's because I'm feeling a bit lonely at the moment. I've reached out to some people in different areas of my life, but for one reason or another, they're a bit busy and can't get back to me right now.

It's much easier for me to be understanding and accepting when people are busy, yet sometimes, it feels like everybody is just too busy. And I want to be clear, I'm talking about everyone I want to spend time with right now. I also choose to believe they're busy because, in the past, I had a tendency to blame myself for their absence, thinking I might have done something wrong. But it's not that I don't make mistakes; I do, and I make it my mission to learn from them. That being said, there's no need to repeat a mistake twice – once in real life and once, if not more, in my own mind, reliving that mistake over and again.

Because, to me, there's a difference between learning from a mistake and just reliving it, feeling the pain of doing something wrong, maybe even hurting someone. I wonder about what truly classifies as doing something wrong. While a mistake may not be the right way to do something, it's not precisely the wrong way if we learn from it. In a roundabout way, it was the right way to learn a lesson from that mistake. However, my definition of doing something wrong is making a decision or acting out of fear, as opposed to making a choice with the intention of genuine love. When your intention is real love, it's truly difficult to go wrong.